Sunday, January 18, 1998
January 1998 - email3
Well.......... this just happens to be yet another quite emotional thing..... Readers beware! This is uncensored!
From: Gary Ploski
Subject: its now 5:30 and i have felt the same thing for about
To: April Harvey
ohhh lets say 4 hours. The reason... I woke up about 4 hours ago. The symptom...I'm alone. My god-damn stomach won't leave me alone babe! I look fwd to the upcoming week ONLY because it'll mean that I'll be around people and I'll be busy. Hun -- I'm sorry to keep doing this to you for the past two days. I know that this isn't makeing it easier, but I want to make sure I keep my end of our bargain. I'm going to tell you how I feel even if it means letting it out everyday. Hun, I have never felt this kind of pain. I can handle physical pain, but this pain -- it's not the type of pain that you can get used to. It's not the kind that slowly goes away. I hope that it suppresses so I can live this life and take more of it (JPN's lifestyle/society/culture/etc) back with me.
I hope you slept well. I slept in the exact same position all night, lying on my back with bunny on my chest. Like when you lie down on my chest. I kept my arm around bunny just like I do to you. It felt good for a second, but then reality hit me. It was only a stuffed animal. I'm guessing that things have been busy for you. I'm happy for you, I know that's the only way to get through the day without feeling this pain for great lengths. I want to .... well, I wanna hold your hand and look into your eyes. That's all. I'd feel really happy if I could do that. Well I'm gonna shave and then leave the apartment for the first time...I've been in here all weekend. Cleaning, ironing, etc..the place looks great. yeah (said like I care lots, right -- a little sarcasm there huh) : \ Chat with you in a little while. hope things are goin' nicely nicely. imu. ciao cito